Still crying

Last week my trainer ran with me and I shaved off 57 seconds on my 1 k warm-up! Let me put this in perspective..I began Crossfit on Aug. 9 2010 and I couldn't run 50 meters without stopping and walking for awhile. Last Friday I ran 400 m before I stopped.
The progress I have been experiencing has had me re-evaluating my diet. I have spent time talking with a dear friend about my 'inability' to eat meat --how I would focus on the death of the animal. I would hear John's voice in my head "You won't get the best results if you are not following a Paleo Diet" After some soul searching and landing in place a reverence for the animal who gives his life for us to eat (a very Native viewpoint) I have introduced meat back into my diet.
I was having horrible acid reflux during workouts (if I wasn't about to puke--I was burning up) John told me it was because of Grains and dairy. So, I have stopped eating grains altogether and have not had any heartburn..oh John ..he is always right..so far..but I will never let him know where my blog is so his head won't get too huge!
Last night's workout was a killer
Warm-up -- 1 k run  5 min of mobility
WOD:
AMRAP in 12 min of;

• 5 Overhead Squat
• 5 Sumo Deadlift High Pull
• 50 skips
• I completed 4 sets + 25 skips (almost 5)

Then...you guessed it..
I cried ....
.but in my car this time so that is progress :)

Why do I cry? I'm not sure ..Karl thinks I'm too hard on myself ..I remind him that my thinking is what helped me pull myself out of where I grew up and be the first person in my family to get a University degree :)

I just keep trying.
Oh! Karl hid the scale ..I kept weighing myself and feeling discouraged. There is a difference in my clothes, no doubt, but scale wasn't dropping significantly.
I have abandoned the scale ;) that's huge for me. I have decided to weigh myself 1 time per month.

One last thing..I hurt more today than I can remember--my knees are killing ..such a sweet pain :)

Gracias

Tabata Hell

What does a trainer think when someone cries during a Tabata workout???
Well, who would cry during a Tabata workout? Moi!
Why do you ask?
Well, because I wanted to complete it but fatique took over and I'm not a quitter.
What is a Tabata? Glad you asked!
"The Tabata protocol is a high-intensity training regimen that produces remarkable results. A Tabata workout (also called a Tabata sequence) is an interval training cycle of 20 seconds of maximum intensity exercise, followed by 10 seconds of rest, repeated without pause 8 times for a total of four minutes. In a group context, you can keep score by counting how many lifts/jumps/whatever you do in each of the 20 second rounds. The round with the smallest number is your score."

So, last night --after what felt like an excruitiating warm-up (I was exhausted after the warm-up)
We did a Tabata
Deadlifts with 14lb medicine ball smallest number 9
Pushups--smallest number 8
squats--smallest number 8
kettleball swing...cried!

I completed 1 set of kettleball swings ..missed the next set and went back to try again and completed 3 swings before John told me I was going to hurt myself.
Crossfit is so humbling.
I explained to my husband that I am use to excelling in all areas of my life except physically. I have achieved so many things professionally, scholastically, emotionally ...etc.
I have neglected my physical side in favour of achievement in other realms..not anymore!
I know I have a "long road" ahead of me as John my trainer stated ..which by the way --was horrible to swallow. I want to wake up tomorrow and be a crossfit postergirl ;)
Maybe someday I will.
We just completed week 3 of crossfit and it takes 21 days to break a habit and create a habit...
I LOVE Crossfit ..I'm not giving up ..it would be like giving up on me and I refuse to do that.

here's to not giving up even when you are crying!